Dear Jessica Brennan,
Even when you get to my age, sometimes a thought will show up about life that has never come before.  A perspective or different lens will present itself out of the blue and you think, “Oh, now I get it”.
This happened to me the other night. I was trying to sleep, a little overwhelmed with what I was stepping into the next day.  The new year is presenting options and ideas and a volume of work that was unexpected and as I felt the wave of it all rushing toward me, the light bulb went off in my brain and I was instantly calm.
It went like this: Nothing is coming at me, because nothing is there.  At this point, tomorrow is nothingness, vastness, emptiness. I’m not walking into a pre-set tomorrow with an industrial fan of responsibility blowing at me. I don’t have to run at full speed just to stand still.  The truth is, tomorrow is vacant, as packed-in or uninhabited as I decide it should be.  I am the industrial fan, and I’m blowing out toward the future, not the other way around. I am creating my life, so what do I want to create?
Tomorrow hasn’t happened. It is a blank canvas. The sun has not come out, a car has not been driven, a kind or harsh word has not been spoken. Nothing has been eaten, written, forgotten, cried about, laughed at, sung.
This realization has brought me comfort. While some might say that this frightens them — not knowing what tomorrow will bring, because as vast as it is in this moment, everyone knows it will certainly bring something, I still say that passively accepting that tomorrow is a pre-existing scenario of uncontrollable events that will come flying at you, is the wrong way to look at it.
Tomorrow is a day like most days that you can use to create the life you want. Now I can’t wait for tomorrow. What do you want to create?
Love Mum
xo
PS – see you tomorrow
